You think your life is sucks? Read mine.

Yes, I am gonna publish a book with this blog title. Or I can change the title to "My Life Fucks Me Everyday" →_→

Today..... A shitty thing happened on me AGAIN. I went to library to borrow book, as to satisfy the request of the lecturer of materiel of mechanics also because I rather read book then her bahasa slides. I went to the machine there, I scanned my matric card and type in my pin, as usual, then the screen showed a notice of I cannot borrow books cause my ID is blocked. I was like what the heck??! Then I repeat the steps again, just this time I type my pin slower lor, cuz might be pin error ma. Still cannot. NEVERMIND I TRY AGAIN WITH EVEN SLOWER SPEED. Wtf pin with 4 digits impossible I will type wrong so many times and I confirm I didn't forget my pin cuz I never change before. Tiam liao lor, dunno what the shit happen again liao lor confirm system got problem lor. Then I went to the counter and asked :" Why my ID is blocked huh?" Then that librarian checked and told me is because I have a book haven't return yet and I need to pay fine RM46.40. WTF SERIOUSLY??  I really really confirmed I got return every books that I had borrow. I told him, he gimme the book code and asked me go find at the shelf. can be lazy abit it's my fault now meh i am a victim leh dude scare the hell out of me leh dude

I asked him, what's the title of the book. Calculus. Wth calculus, hell yeah calculus. That's the course I took last year, when I was a YEAR ONE SEM ONE student now I'm year two dy man! yeah right I only got borrow books during sem 1, new student ma keh keh act like very rajin lor I don't even have the image of how the book looks like when he told me the title. So I went to fourth floor and find lor, and yeah found one on the shelf. So freaking thick man, more confirmed I sure won't forget to return this gigantic bulky book. Then I rushed back to the first floor, to the counter and told him I found the book. He checked and said same code but different barcode leh. I was like wtf banyak macam-macam lah chicken I was so pissed and got a diploma student beside comfort me LOL. So I went back and find another one lor, but found the other one with the barcode matched book code tidak match pulak. Chicken I was so scare I thought I need to repay the book liao wor, cuz there was no more that book on the shelf, that book so freaking thick sure very expensive one ngam ngam there got another ppl who REALLY LOST HIS BOOK, that library told him fine no need pay only need to pay the price of book even the book is rm1000 you also need to pay. Me kiu ah AND I DIDN'T EVEN LOST THE BOOK NOT MY FAULT PUN!!! Where to find money to pay ahh heart pain ah if I really need to pay for it! 

Lastly that really is the book I borrowed last time lah. Duh. They deduct my fine and asked me fill a form lor. Still warn me next time after return book by using machine check my account see whether is really returned or not. I just wanna say... WHY WHOLE WORLD PPL RETURN BOOK USING THE SAME MACHINE THAT I USED BUT ONLY ME KENA FUCK. You tell me lah!!! Urgh! 

And ah, today I went to McD enjoy makan GCB, I thought my class at 5pm but actually is at 2. Screwed. *roll eyes* 

And and and, when I was coming out from the library I saw a sikun bus stop there, but when I reached bus stop, it's gone. = = Then I wait lor, I always wait for bus what, so here comes an etika delta (after one song time) but it's so full and I don't squeeze like a savage to get in a bus. So I didn't get the the bus lor, decided to walk to atm lah, when I was walking I saw a UTHM bus is going out. Fuck la even if I have the olympic racer's speed I also can't reach bus stop before the bus mah. Sien when I almost reach bus stop I saw the uthm bus went out lor. Like that treat me lor, let me wait another half an hour lor. 

SIEN SIEN SIEN

My life can be more bitch abit. 

Yes, Call Me Senior!

After one week my classes have started, yeah now I just wanted to blog about it. Officially a 2nd year student, so yes, call me senior! Hahaha plus I am the only chinese senior for my course, and basically my classmates and I are the only seniors also, since our course is the new course of the uni, so yeah, pls do appreciate us if you need any helps there my cute little juniors. *smile sarcastically*

Being a second year student nothing special also lah. Just like most of the other universities (except UTM), we're being chased out my hostel so we moved to a rented house. The rent is expensive like hell and we have to buy all the furniture by ourselves. =A= Just this one week I already spent around RM500-600 for furniture and random craps. Hard to save money nowadays :( 

Of course before I came back I was quite emo cuz I seriously don't feel like wanna come back to this hell again feel like ntg here can make me happy. But things are working out eventually. Just hard to move our for the first move then the rest will be just fine after sometime after the goddamn first move. Yeah this is random craps 1.

So when we reached the house, it's very very dirty and it was a total mess! I didn't really help much in cleaning, cuz I am that kind of annoying lazy ass. Haha. Now the house is clean dy, and not bad actually the living room is so big! and empty 

The cat around our area. But because my housemates treat her so nice, so she always come to our house. We even have a name for it! Her name is 小黑 (xiao hei) >w< Typical naming sense for animals, what skin colour what name lor hahaha 

Btw, I am not really a cat lover lah. I do like cat but I only like to see the pictures of cats. A big no no for having cats for pet! Although I do had a cat as pet before, but he died. :'( Hate it when your pet don't have a long life like human. 

Putting that tikar is totally decreasing my HP. LOL. It's a tough job, especially for girls cuz one roll of that tikar is so freaking heavy and it's not easy to set it on floor also! It cannot be flatten on floor, still got some air trapped inside and I have no idea why *annoyed* 

We bought washing machine and a fridge also. Since we have the washing machine, now I become even lazy to wash my clothes. I just accumulate until my pail is totally fullllllllll then i throw every shit in washing machine press the button then done XD Haha so lazy so damn lazy I still haven't recover from my August goyang kaki holiday mood. →_→

Our fridge! When you fill it full, that kind of feeling is just so satisfying and happy hahaha

Aiya almost forget to post about my room. I am living in master room and sharing it with another 2 ppl. That photo is showing my corner aka my territory, limpeh的地盘。It's really comfortable and I plan to plant a cactus! If my table can put in front of a window then it would be the best! Cuz my dream room is table in front window, bed beside table like that. Anyway sharing room with other ppl cannot do so much pattern as I like lah and I really satisfy with current situation. Wish to stick some luminous stars on the wall cuz that wall is so blank I feel like wanna do something on it! Haha if I can draw I might draw a garden on? LOL. I also wanna put a whiteboard in front the wall of my table. Feel like I can write memo on it or draw whatever crap on it hahaha (random crap 2: recently I like to edit photo with line camera, it's so cute and I really love to doodle on my photo XD)  

Anyway, living outside is much inconvenient when I actually need to take bus to uni. It made me late to the class (although I really always late), and once my class was over when I was still in the bus on the way to class. This sem decided not to late to the class like previous sem, cuz I heard some lecturers complaining about our attitude and I bet I must be one of the being complained punya student. To be honest, besides late to the class and sleep/play phone in class I am actually a good student also leh. At least I didn't disturb ppl in the class bah, and I didn't failed my subjects. However, my pointer of previous sem drop liao leh :( Cannot continue like this liao, this sem must work hard and get all A's. HAHA just saying.

Oh ya, this sem I have some juniors find me for books. I am kinda happy cuz having my own juniors! Haha of course will do my best to help them la. Being helpless is so pity I know that feel. *sob* But I am a bad senior oh haha don't expect much from me lol

Hmmm. Mind blank now, should be lying on my bed now. 

That's all lah.

Random crap 3: I hate my hair bang, so fucking ugly. I everyday waste so many time in adjusting the best view of it. I guess most of my time wasted on this and it is one of the reason made me late also. = =

First Year Sem 3 aka Short Sem

So now here i am, 5.44 in the morning at senai airport writing my new entry. haha

This year I had short sem here, when everyone is going back for their 2 months holidays, I have to stay and my holiday left is 2 weeks. But due to raya holidays, my holiday became one month instead of 2 weeks! Good good good XDD So now I'm going to share a bit about how i spent my short sem, alone.

ALONE. Yeah, I stayed alone here, at Michelle's rented house. Thanks her for letting me stay at her place when most of the students stay at Taman University. Of course, many ppl asked me, why i don't want stay at taman u since my place don't have wifi and it's not really convenient. Well, first reason is when the time we need to submit our hostel application with the hostel fee, I have no money to pay for it. Second reason is, I don't like to live around with the ppl I'm not familiar with. Actually I was kinda looking forward to live alone! XD 

Many ppl also asked me, how do you do? Living alone. My answer is NICE! To be honest, staying alone is so so so so nice! Although I don't have ppl to chat with (well ppl i usually wanna chat with never beside me also), then I bought RM18/month plan to keep connected with my besties and friends. Sometimes being around ppl also very sien. Especially when you have an annoying disgusting asshole roommate to bear with, then living alone is like you're living in a sweeeeeeet heaven! It's really nice when no one ask you, whatcha doing?. No matter what i am doing is totally none of your business right? Btw, I will suddenly chuckles or smile/laugh when i think of i'm living alone. Hahaha. So yeah.. Pretty pathetic though. LOL

Anyway, why my 2 weeks holidays turned to one month's? Haha. It's because raya holiday! First time really love raya Raya has 2 weeks holidays, then left one week lecture week then final week. Lecturer said he can finish everything before raya, so the problem left is can we have final exam earlier? I put lots of effort to let lecturer give me early exam. My lecturer, also is my penasihat akademik, he is soooo damn lazy!! From the day we knew after raya holiday we just need to come back one day for final (it's totally impossible for me coz hey my dad isn't pilot), I kept asking him to let me know can i have final earlier possibly before raya. He kept saying next week next week, until the week before holiday, last week, he asked me to book a flight directly and gave him my boarding pass so that he can help me adjust to let me have my final earlier. Of course I did so asap, and I gave him my boarding pass on friday, put inside the damn envelope that stick on his door (i seriously curious why he always not in his room). The tuesday i asked him (as wednesday is the last day of class), can i have exam on wednesday? He replied, need to be confirmed by dean first. I was like.. What the... Alright, then when you can confirm to me coz tomorrow is the LAST day. He said, dean asked why need to take exam earlier. I was soooooooooo full in rage when i saw that msg! WTF, now you're asking me why??! I thought you should in the progress settling this shit! Then I said, can i use family problem as a reason, he asked me draft letter for him. Okay, after I finish type my letter, printed, and again need to put in his damn envelope, I saw my boarding pass is still in the fucking envelope!!!! That time I felt like wanna kick him door, scold him the word start from 'c' and show him my longest finger!! Luckily the next day he still let me have my exam. So now I settled everything so finally can relax and enjoy my one month holiday. Btw, he is really sucks. Although lastly he made up my final, but he is a person with no commitment. Tsk tsk....

Oh ya, need to thank kit fetch me to senai! haha if not really hard for me to call a taxi to senai by myself. The price is gonna kill me. No bus to senai pulak. What the heck, at least got bus to LCCT and KLIA. Senai sucks. Fly from johor still more expensive then fly from KL. Why I don't want just fly from KL? Nah. I went through the process of take bus from Parit Raja to Batu Pahat Terminal, then bus to KL TBS, then bus again to LCCT, lastly bas lagi to KLIA for twice. I really tired of catching up with so many buses, so fly from senai then. haha

Owh finish this entry now the time is around 6.11am. Still got 3 hours ++ before my flight. My flight is at 9.35am TTATT How to kill time when all i think is "I WANT SLEEP". Hahaha LOL 

Back to Kuching Again! XD

Yes, now i'm at home dy. So gonna blog about the past few days I spent at Kuching with my besties. <3 Thanks them very very much much for sponsor my flight to come back.

So first day i reached kuching around 1am cause my flight keep on delaying!! 

9:55pm delayed until 10:30pm then still delayed until 11:15pm. = = 

Ying's sleepy face. Thanks her and Justin waited for me until 1am. <3 Btw, her room still messy as usual, got a little bit worse than before because of her king size bed. Very tim teh i need to climb over it. haha

The next day we straight away go sing k! I miss kuching's track 7 very much cause it can sing from 12 to 8pm! Unlike batu pahat one, only can sing 3 hours. Where got enough??! haha But sien after sing few hours then whole kuching blackout. = = so unlucky one first day i go hun gimme blackout pulak. But my wallet no magically come out with more cash! (only Malaysian get this joke XP)  

See ah ying sings her heart out XDDDD

Camwhore with yun~ surprisingly she can came out with us EVERYDAY. She used to be the aeroplane moi but now the aeroplane moi position is replaced by chen. hahaha 

Girls couldn't resist the power of mirror! hahaha

The next day we went ummzit ummzit! If I'm not mistaken this is planned by yun cause she wanted to go pub long time ago. Well, we're over 20 already but still haven't step in pub of course we're tempted to try. Haha. Wear pretty to go, too bad we dunno how to make up. LOL. 

When we were preparing. Thanks ying for borrowing me her dress and sorry make it into bigger size XD Btw, STOP asking where is the belt. haha

Chilling at Picolo cafe before head to The Junk. Met ah joo and chat alot. Nice to meet old friends and chit chat alot. Can't found this kind of feel with new friends. haha

Bonsai milk tea from picolo cafe. A thumb up for it!

Ummzit ummzit with ojipala members. <3 <3 someone angry so i don't dare take pic with her.. See my own photo there is pretty awkward. LOL

We planned to go Junk Bar but there was full so we changed to the bar next of it. It's not really fun like what we've expected LOL Lastly we went to Deja Vu goyang kaki lor. haha 

In Pullman's toilet. Haha once again, when there is mirror,  that's when girls start camwhore! hahaha

Going to Adrian's house! haha

Met Shan! haha of course we did manicure. hahahaha 

Lim teh at 101. See the number of ppl already decreased. Haih.. We used to combine 2 tables but now 1 is already enough for us. Then we had a very tipu money fried mushroom there. RM10 but little only! Not worthy and the photo is posted in to the Kuching Food Critics group. haha

Camwhore in front of yun's red wall before we off to our dinner at Sharing. Intended to make a cake to celebrate our birthday all at once but kinda rush if wanna make it for that day. So we changed to other days. haha We're 21st dy! Officially an adult. =D

Continue camwhore. hahaha

I really love to take group photo like this! Although need some works to make everyone fit in the screen but it's fun and happy to see the result isn't? XDDDD Love group photos!

Happy 21st!! haha

After sharing, we went to GSC at City one and watched a midnight movie! Wanna watch Despicable me 2 but its showtime is on 12am which we really don't want wait any longer so we chose to watch Monsters University. Not bad, though. The monsters in some are very cuteeee!

I waited so long for the ppl who standing in front this Monsters University poster to leave there so that we can take photo in front of the poster! hahaha

Sushi King Bonanza with my besties!

Chilling at Picolo Cafe again! XD

Went to newly opened Summer Mall. The food court there really decorated nicely! They used the beach theme! I like it very muchhh >< So after Spring is Summer, I wonder when they are going to build Autumn mall and Winter mall. LOL

Last day sing K before i leave. But that day is not my last day because when i went to kuching sentral around 11pm, it's closed dy. LOL. I thought bus running 24 hours one. = = It supposed to be like that, usually bus run until 1am something. So i thought it would be the same at Kuching also, who knows Kuching's bus only run till 10pm. = = The awkward moment when you said goodbye with everyone, then you came back again. LOL.

Owh I almost forget about this. As I mentioned earlier, we planned to bake or buy a cake to celebrate everyone's birthday at once. So before I rushed to Kuching Sentral like an idiot, we did celebrate it with the cheese cake baked by yun! Yum~my!! We sang birthday song together, we took photo with the cake (LOL). Trying to forget how the boys sien face cause we keep on taking photos and videos before eat that cake. It's super lovely and touching cause not everyone can really gather together like this as always. Just like ying said, I wonder is there anyone out there envy our friendship? HAHAHAHA 

Then we overnight at yun's house! hahaha

Yun you sleeping really got mo ya hahahaha 

Really hope can meet you guys ASAP! Let me save some money to go Perth haha. 

Life sucks, but it's better with friends right~ XD Epscially when you go outside you found that not everyone is fun and compatible with you. 

That's it. Finally finish this entry. Haha.

You know you love me, xoxo. XDD (copied from Gossip Girls)

Mobile Blogging!

I heard can update blog by using phone and I'm kinda bored now so I give a try then. Haha
Finished finals and officially ended the life as a year 1 student. Not considering the short sem lah. = = Back to kuching to meet my dear bffssss haha cause ah ying is back from Melbourne and she will be going back around August.

Hate to go back to Batu Pahat to continue my short sem. But now only me alone gonna stay for short sem made me feel good also. At least I can no need face the same annoying face everyday. Gimme a rest and prepare to see her annoying and disgusting face after 2 months. Haha

Anyway had fun in kch with my friends! Will update more in my next entry if I'm not lazy hahaha
Gotta off and eat ying's butter pork. Lol she cooked one, I doubt the taste. Hahahaha

Here is a photo with my lovely friends! Love them very very much much hahaha

this is what ying cooked for us. Butter pork and vege! haha

PS: Blog using mobile is convenient but it's better without posting photos. LOL I re-edit this post because the photos posted are too big and in a mess with the words. 

Not emo, I guess.

Recently I'm really keen to update my blog huh. haha 

Although I'm not filling it up with interesting stuff. 

Sometime I look at other people, I'm so envy with them. They can always do the things they wanted to do, or actually the things I wanted to do. It's easy for them, but it's a mission impossible for me. All I want is just a little happiness than can make me feel like I'm worth to be existed in this world. But I dunno why I'm having all negative thoughts in my mind, I'm just 20 but I'm no longer the little girl who dreamt about her awesome future anymore. I was a girl who always thought that tomorrow must be better than today, and a cool and outstanding future is waiting me out there. I thought that now I might not be able to do big things, but I'll be the big one in the future. Haha, full of sarcasm. 

About the people who made my days suck than what i had expected, thank you. At least I'm prepared to meet the different level of assholes out there. Just like one of my friend told me, yeah, I met too much nice people so I can't seems to move on when I meet one total ass. Will try to learn how to ignore. Ignorance is bliss. Hard lesson. :( 

Buck up and fuck all the assholes! haha

It's time to sleep! 

xoxo

Prodigal Life

I'm prodigal girl. :( It's just the start of the June but I already spent quite a lot of money. Actually this sem like I mentioned in my previous entry, I said I'm running out of money dy, so I asked money from my mom. Orz She gave me double the amount I have asked. So I felt so sorrrryyyyyyy :((

The start of study week is making ppl feel like IT'S HOLIDAY! so can't stop enjoy. Till now I still haven't start to study. No mood to studyyyyyyy helppppppp. LOL 

Fast gimme the spirit of study like hell! LOL. This spirit is dead long time ago.. zzz

Grumblesssss

The frustrated moment when you found that your uni life isn't fun like what you had imagine.....

Orz *drowned*

I guess this will be an emo entry. 

Of course when I was first enter here, I met new people, I made new friends, I saw different kind of funny people, it's fun, it's happy everyday but when the time flies, I started to see the ugliness of the things behind. It can be my problems, it also can be other's prob but eventually I hardly to be happy anymore.

Talk about my problem.. THERE IS SURE HELL LOTS OF PROBLEM! I lazy, I procrastinate, I impatient bla bla I just can't count how many weak points I have. What's wrong with me??! Everything is just so wrong. LOL. This sem is the worst sem ever. I'm flooded with the lab reports, I dealt with the most annoying and troublesome auto cad assignments. These all done last minute-ly. I have time but I rather spent time doing nothing checking facebook updates, plurking, watch movies like there is no tomorrow then when the deadline is straight in front me (not around the corner), then I rushed like hell to finish them. I'm so get used of not doing homeworks, relax doing nothing. Laziness kills me. I killed myself orz. I'm not a genius, so my last minutes works aren't that good also, can be considered bad. Guess I will not having good result for this sem also, and this actually made me feel so frustrated. Then I spent too much enjoy, and actually really kinda met the situation of "I don't have money to buy my dinner". I even had the nightmare of I'm totally out of money. So now, waking up in the morning can be the hardest part in my life cause once I woke up, I have to face the troubles of assignments and money. :(

About other people.... Yeah I admit I'm an ego and bad temper person. I really hate group works. I hate it when they don't corporate, they didn't do their works nicely. Yeah I can accept copy and paste work, cause I'm doing so also lol, but I really cannot accept you cope and paste BLINDLY. You're not reading what you had copy, you're not understanding the title given. For sure everyone is doing their assignments is because that is a "MUST" for an university student but please think, why the hell you need to do assignments? Don't mention about learning something, I bet rarely got people think so. MARKS. Marks that can decide your class honours which is printed on you certificate! Hell yeah, we all doing the damn fucking assignments because of the marks, because we want to get a better result, because we want to graduate as a first class honours students (or second is more possible lol). I don't care you simply copy paste in your individual works, but in group, you need to be responsible to other members. This isn't about you, is about everyone. You get screwed, so do I. You're screwed because you sucks, I'm screwed because YOU SUCKS! 

But actually this sem I'm same like them so I'M A SUCK-ISH BITCH also.

And after I get to know someone even deeply, I found that.... It's really hard to get along with people. Yeah especially princess typed girls. I wanted to say this long long time ago:

"You might be diamond in your parent's eyes, you might be the best among your friends, you might be the most special one in the hearts who loved you, but you're NOTHING to me. Seriously, nothing. You don't act like you're the king of my little kingdom, I don't give a damn!"

I'm just sick of every time have to face someone's gloomy face. I know life is stress, I know sometimes you're tired but please please please, don't splasshhhh your anger to the innocent one. We're not living to please you. We have our own emotions and feelings also. Why the fuck we get screwed when we done nothing bad on you?! Tell me whyyyyyyyy! Let me tell ya something, when you're going outside, you're not the little princess/prince in your palace dy. I'm not asking you to please others la, but also no need make everyone need to see your face ma. It's very irritating!  We always have to look out for someone's mood swings and it's so damnnnn annoying!  *pissed*

Btw, do you know what's called "RIGHT" aka HAK (in case you're sucks in english or malay, chinese is 权利) ! You have right to SAY NO. Oh please, no need pretend like you care about others feelings, cause at the end when you're doing the things you don't want to do eventually you will show us your sien face also. We look at you also sien, sincerely we're better off without you! You're a grown up person dy, you can live alone right? Don't force yourself to be fit with us oh please no no no cause at last we need to care your little fragile heart and your unstable emotion making us feel like we're holding a bomb that will explode ANYTIME! If I got the chance not to ask you out, believe me I will!

Actually other than that, uni life can be fun also lah. I really met people I can get along with, I really had fun too! *serious face* haha I only can say, you can't live alone but at the same time you hardly get well with some people and this is so called life. 

Malacca Trip

Went to Malacca twice plus i really feel like wanna update my blog so here i am!  LOL

So this year January before going back to hometown i already went to Malacca once~ It's one of the place i wanted to go in Malaysia because Malacca is famous with its history and it's one of the famous travel location. Since Batu Pahat is so near to Malacca of course need to go to Malacca spin around and round round round lor LOL! My friend's boyfriend is studying at UTeM so he can guide us where to go~ Btw, Batu Pahat to Malacca only takes 2 hours and the bus ticket is less than RM10! How good about study at Batu Pahat! (self-comforting orz)

Most of my photos are posted in Instagram and Facebook dy. Can't stop posting photos when i was at Malacca homestay. Malacca is really a very pretty place with its own accent. It would be better if i have my own camera then i can take photos like there is no tomorrow hahaha

The bus stopped here. I saw so many tourists and a crowd of people. People mountain people sea XDDDD So many handsome ang mo~! Why ang mo all so nice looking one! TTATT We stand behind the tourist group and listen to the tourist guide explaining the history of this place lol. Sad to say i already forgot all the history i have learnt after spm. haha

 Btw, my homestay is around there, near Jonker walk. So by walking we already can go there.

I like this windmill very much!

Let's photos tell the story:

when i second time i was there, an ang mo point on this statue and said"that's me" LOL

seems like many celebrities went there before 

the chicken rice ball!

Then we had the famous Malacca chicken rice ball! To be honest, the chicken rice ball from this FAMOUS shop not so satisfying lor. Got another one is more nice! Need to queue for it LOL but it's nicer than this one. Too bad didn't take any photos of it. 

After makan of course start to walk around liao la! We went back to the church there. It's time to start taking photos again XDDD

Top view :D

Train~~~

The canons!

Nadeje crepes! Me loveyyy

鸡蛋冰, ice in a shape of egg XD

asam laksa and cendol!! Niceyyyyy

vintage camera~~ i'm a fan of vintage ><

yogurt puff! They said durian is better but i anti durian LOL

Jonker street, those hawkers are still prepraring

paper crafts! 

Nyonya rice dumpling! At first i thought the blue one is mold LOL

Dataran Pahlawan

Lazy to post more photos, since most of them have been posted in my facebook or instagram.
Actually, this is a post created 2 months ago, and I went to Malacca again, but this time is straight to A Famosa. Very fun also, but will be update in the next blog entry when I got mood for it. LOL haha

Anyways, I can be your personal guide if you want XD (of course, this service is only provided for my dear lovely friends XDD)