You think your life is sucks? Read mine.

Yes, I am gonna publish a book with this blog title. Or I can change the title to "My Life Fucks Me Everyday" →_→

Today..... A shitty thing happened on me AGAIN. I went to library to borrow book, as to satisfy the request of the lecturer of materiel of mechanics also because I rather read book then her bahasa slides. I went to the machine there, I scanned my matric card and type in my pin, as usual, then the screen showed a notice of I cannot borrow books cause my ID is blocked. I was like what the heck??! Then I repeat the steps again, just this time I type my pin slower lor, cuz might be pin error ma. Still cannot. NEVERMIND I TRY AGAIN WITH EVEN SLOWER SPEED. Wtf pin with 4 digits impossible I will type wrong so many times and I confirm I didn't forget my pin cuz I never change before. Tiam liao lor, dunno what the shit happen again liao lor confirm system got problem lor. Then I went to the counter and asked :" Why my ID is blocked huh?" Then that librarian checked and told me is because I have a book haven't return yet and I need to pay fine RM46.40. WTF SERIOUSLY??  I really really confirmed I got return every books that I had borrow. I told him, he gimme the book code and asked me go find at the shelf. can be lazy abit it's my fault now meh i am a victim leh dude scare the hell out of me leh dude

I asked him, what's the title of the book. Calculus. Wth calculus, hell yeah calculus. That's the course I took last year, when I was a YEAR ONE SEM ONE student now I'm year two dy man! yeah right I only got borrow books during sem 1, new student ma keh keh act like very rajin lor I don't even have the image of how the book looks like when he told me the title. So I went to fourth floor and find lor, and yeah found one on the shelf. So freaking thick man, more confirmed I sure won't forget to return this gigantic bulky book. Then I rushed back to the first floor, to the counter and told him I found the book. He checked and said same code but different barcode leh. I was like wtf banyak macam-macam lah chicken I was so pissed and got a diploma student beside comfort me LOL. So I went back and find another one lor, but found the other one with the barcode matched book code tidak match pulak. Chicken I was so scare I thought I need to repay the book liao wor, cuz there was no more that book on the shelf, that book so freaking thick sure very expensive one ngam ngam there got another ppl who REALLY LOST HIS BOOK, that library told him fine no need pay only need to pay the price of book even the book is rm1000 you also need to pay. Me kiu ah AND I DIDN'T EVEN LOST THE BOOK NOT MY FAULT PUN!!! Where to find money to pay ahh heart pain ah if I really need to pay for it! 

Lastly that really is the book I borrowed last time lah. Duh. They deduct my fine and asked me fill a form lor. Still warn me next time after return book by using machine check my account see whether is really returned or not. I just wanna say... WHY WHOLE WORLD PPL RETURN BOOK USING THE SAME MACHINE THAT I USED BUT ONLY ME KENA FUCK. You tell me lah!!! Urgh! 

And ah, today I went to McD enjoy makan GCB, I thought my class at 5pm but actually is at 2. Screwed. *roll eyes* 

And and and, when I was coming out from the library I saw a sikun bus stop there, but when I reached bus stop, it's gone. = = Then I wait lor, I always wait for bus what, so here comes an etika delta (after one song time) but it's so full and I don't squeeze like a savage to get in a bus. So I didn't get the the bus lor, decided to walk to atm lah, when I was walking I saw a UTHM bus is going out. Fuck la even if I have the olympic racer's speed I also can't reach bus stop before the bus mah. Sien when I almost reach bus stop I saw the uthm bus went out lor. Like that treat me lor, let me wait another half an hour lor. 

SIEN SIEN SIEN

My life can be more bitch abit. 

Grumblesssss

The frustrated moment when you found that your uni life isn't fun like what you had imagine.....

Orz *drowned*

I guess this will be an emo entry. 

Of course when I was first enter here, I met new people, I made new friends, I saw different kind of funny people, it's fun, it's happy everyday but when the time flies, I started to see the ugliness of the things behind. It can be my problems, it also can be other's prob but eventually I hardly to be happy anymore.

Talk about my problem.. THERE IS SURE HELL LOTS OF PROBLEM! I lazy, I procrastinate, I impatient bla bla I just can't count how many weak points I have. What's wrong with me??! Everything is just so wrong. LOL. This sem is the worst sem ever. I'm flooded with the lab reports, I dealt with the most annoying and troublesome auto cad assignments. These all done last minute-ly. I have time but I rather spent time doing nothing checking facebook updates, plurking, watch movies like there is no tomorrow then when the deadline is straight in front me (not around the corner), then I rushed like hell to finish them. I'm so get used of not doing homeworks, relax doing nothing. Laziness kills me. I killed myself orz. I'm not a genius, so my last minutes works aren't that good also, can be considered bad. Guess I will not having good result for this sem also, and this actually made me feel so frustrated. Then I spent too much enjoy, and actually really kinda met the situation of "I don't have money to buy my dinner". I even had the nightmare of I'm totally out of money. So now, waking up in the morning can be the hardest part in my life cause once I woke up, I have to face the troubles of assignments and money. :(

About other people.... Yeah I admit I'm an ego and bad temper person. I really hate group works. I hate it when they don't corporate, they didn't do their works nicely. Yeah I can accept copy and paste work, cause I'm doing so also lol, but I really cannot accept you cope and paste BLINDLY. You're not reading what you had copy, you're not understanding the title given. For sure everyone is doing their assignments is because that is a "MUST" for an university student but please think, why the hell you need to do assignments? Don't mention about learning something, I bet rarely got people think so. MARKS. Marks that can decide your class honours which is printed on you certificate! Hell yeah, we all doing the damn fucking assignments because of the marks, because we want to get a better result, because we want to graduate as a first class honours students (or second is more possible lol). I don't care you simply copy paste in your individual works, but in group, you need to be responsible to other members. This isn't about you, is about everyone. You get screwed, so do I. You're screwed because you sucks, I'm screwed because YOU SUCKS! 

But actually this sem I'm same like them so I'M A SUCK-ISH BITCH also.

And after I get to know someone even deeply, I found that.... It's really hard to get along with people. Yeah especially princess typed girls. I wanted to say this long long time ago:

"You might be diamond in your parent's eyes, you might be the best among your friends, you might be the most special one in the hearts who loved you, but you're NOTHING to me. Seriously, nothing. You don't act like you're the king of my little kingdom, I don't give a damn!"

I'm just sick of every time have to face someone's gloomy face. I know life is stress, I know sometimes you're tired but please please please, don't splasshhhh your anger to the innocent one. We're not living to please you. We have our own emotions and feelings also. Why the fuck we get screwed when we done nothing bad on you?! Tell me whyyyyyyyy! Let me tell ya something, when you're going outside, you're not the little princess/prince in your palace dy. I'm not asking you to please others la, but also no need make everyone need to see your face ma. It's very irritating!  We always have to look out for someone's mood swings and it's so damnnnn annoying!  *pissed*

Btw, do you know what's called "RIGHT" aka HAK (in case you're sucks in english or malay, chinese is 权利) ! You have right to SAY NO. Oh please, no need pretend like you care about others feelings, cause at the end when you're doing the things you don't want to do eventually you will show us your sien face also. We look at you also sien, sincerely we're better off without you! You're a grown up person dy, you can live alone right? Don't force yourself to be fit with us oh please no no no cause at last we need to care your little fragile heart and your unstable emotion making us feel like we're holding a bomb that will explode ANYTIME! If I got the chance not to ask you out, believe me I will!

Actually other than that, uni life can be fun also lah. I really met people I can get along with, I really had fun too! *serious face* haha I only can say, you can't live alone but at the same time you hardly get well with some people and this is so called life. 

【你暗地里来我光明正大去】如果我的人生是一部电影，你就是弹出来的一个广告。

发这章不是为了泄恨，而是为了将这件事情完全的放下。不要多想，以看故事那样的看过吧~ 如果你觉得我说的全是鸟话，我也无话可说。因为我知道我才没有无聊到在自己记录人生的部落格里说鸟话。
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其实对于这个人，我只能老实说，我是真的不喜欢她。认识她是在我进入中六的时候。怎么说呢，其实呢我对她的感觉就不怎么好了。总觉得她会是我讨厌的那种人。相处久后，我发现我的感觉果真没错。

她的性格，真的很糟糕。（不好意思脑子里就是冒出这句话 Orz) 其实我看得出她是个自我意识过剩的人。 =.= 讲她一句她回你几百句，说是debate team的叻。那就算了，我也不想跟这样的人多说话。不过说到不想说话，我是真的不想跟她说话。我知道我这个烂人的各种表现都很明显（我很想改 Orz|||），我也觉得这样忽略她我真的是太坏了。那为什么还要忽略她呢？那这个问题你是不懂我的答案了，你可不知道跟她说话那种TMD感觉。往事不堪回首，我也不解释了。感觉真的很烂！我还有一段时间为了她心情郁闷得要死。现在想起来我内心仍然郁闷啊他妈的。*捶胸口*

我不懂为什么，每当她跟我说讨厌谁谁谁的时候，我就很想告诉她其实你跟他们没差。炫耀成绩，你何尝不是那样。你不知道为什么上chem时我总会换位下的原因吧，那是因为我不想听你的hao lian鸟话。其他各种我就不提了，从我口中说出来虽然是实话但不觉得是在黑人吗？一个人自己的缺点是靠自己跟别人去发现的（关于这个我差不多每晚睡觉时都会想我自己的烂缺点坑爹的也是我失眠的原因但现在累到不会失眠啦 哈哈哈）。就算别人发现了你的缺点，告诉你大概你会觉得根本就是那个人的问题吧。

记得她曾经发过信息，问我是不是不喜欢她。在此我想向她说声抱歉，对不起我说谎了。其实我看到那信息时，我第一个打的答案是“是有点”。然而我觉得做人不需这么过分，虽然她的糟糕性格我真得很dulan，但真正来说她对朋友也不错（矛盾？oRZ)。所以我才回了“才没有，不要想太多。” 在那一刻，我回了这封信息，那封信息也就代表着我必须改自己好好跟她相处。但事情演变成这种地步，意思也就是我并不能改变自己。

真正的让我觉得这家伙根本就是个他妈的王八蛋的原因是她发给sh的话。我懂sh在facebook上说了什么“不相信我就不要问我”也算是她的错在先。不过看了她的鸟话我觉得她根本就是不爽我们很久现在借此机会来个大翻脸。因为她inbox了sh（为何我会知道？因为sh征求我的意见），sh根本就是低声下气跟她道歉了（哦老天如果是我我可办不到啊办不到╮(╯▽╰)╭），她还是说那么多话。说什么“ 我不喜欢有人在没向我提出原因前就在公共的地方指责我”。姐姐，你没那么做吗？你随后也发了个status在说我们吧？难道我们的fb是公开的你的是非公开的？？我这个坏人就叫sh不要理她不要回复她了sh还是问我要如何回复她。所以我就大概写了个回复给sh，怎知被改得又是低声下气的了（跟原先我写的语气真是差天差地）。然后气人的来了，她的回复超级他妈。看样子压根儿没想过要原谅sh。那就算了，我就说不要理她我们自己没了她过得也会很开心。（我是超级大坏蛋哈哈）之后真的翻脸了。

啊，说真的对于翻脸我觉得很好我真的还蛮开心的。那么我就不用再忍她了天杀的你可不知道那日子有多难熬。可是灾难渐渐开始。 =.=||| 她，到处黑我们。为什么我说是黑？因为我知道她的为人。她一讨厌人她所说出来的可没半句是好的。 也不知是我多想还是什么，我似乎发现了别人的异样眼光。 =A= 嘛，这是我预料到的，别人选择相信她我也不能怎样。这方面还是得佩服她，她人前人后两个样真的很够力。多多学习，出社会也会比较吃香。某次还听到从她口中冒出”他们真的很过分”。姐姐，你比我们更过分的我不想再提了。至于我们一直以来四千金形象太令人深刻了，一有人分道扬镳别人怎不过问。对于这点我问心无愧对着十字架说，别人问我我都不多说。因为我觉得翻了脸，没必要再搞事非。自己过自己的，不理对方就好。她貌似跟很多人说了，别人都可怜她问我们怎么可以这样对她（嘛，我没被问到啦谢天谢地我认识的人不多）。看样子她真的把她自己说得很委屈。算了，that's her style ╮(╯▽╰)╭ 我一直忍。虽然嘴巴说不在意他人的眼光，但偏偏我就是那他娘的连路人甲的眼光都在意的要死的废人。可我还是忍，因为我觉得要出社会了，以后可能还会遇到这样的人（我擦短短十九年可是第一次遇到这样的人能的话不要再来第二次了），要学习如何退一步海阔天空。但是今天听到她请了Mr. Teh教MT2，貌似暗地里策划不让我们知道，而且还牵涉与这事毫无关系的人。我知道我的忍耐已到了极限。（望上这段好长啊去下一段好了)

我真的很想拿只抢，塞进她嘴里然后开到子弹完(O.O!! potential murderer!?）。妈的你怎样黑人没关系，还搞三搞四。我真的无语了………… 我想说，你好肤浅好幼稚。事情变成这样难道是我们的错而已？从来没想过是你自己糟糕的性格惹的祸？哦对，你说了，是朋友就懂你是这样的性格。真对不起，我老妈生我下来可不是要我当个受气包，看来这段友谊我与你是无缘搭上了。生气到了极点时而冷静下来，想开了。我决定把你踢出我的人生电影里，这广告真是他娘的太烂了。从今以后你要怎样随你，你自个儿过你的阳光大道边派传单黑我，我依然会开心的过我的独木桥。不会再让你影响我的情绪，因为这世界多的是真正需要我放心思的人而那个人绝不会是你。

宁愿被人恨，也不愿被人怜。其实我也是很幸福的了。我身边有对我最真诚对我好的不得了的朋友们（相比之下对不起感觉上我总是亏待你们 Orz)。我还奢求什么呢？没必要为了不再是我朋友所说的话而生气，更没必要为了根本就不存在的事情而动怒。她黑的人只是挂上我的名字。我真正是不是那样的人，我知道我真正的朋友也会知道。这就足够了不是吗？至于原谅，我懂你压根儿没想要我们原谅你。放心，我没想过要原谅你。你对我朋友造成的伤害，你让他们伤心难过我都看在眼里这让我恨不得把你碎尸万段。我知道写这些的我跟你一样，幼稚肤浅。但这将会是最后一次，我要停止这广告，继续我的电影。

The end.

:(

Fuck exam.

Fuck school.

Fuck xxx and yyy.

FUCK EVERYTHING. 

The bad start everyday

"Mom, can i skip the school today?"

Dunno since when, this question became an everyday must ask question (so everyday get scolded by mom =.=) I really sick of going to school everyday (argh at here i wanna state that weekdays almost is everyday), every time when i reached school i sure get myself angry one. =A= The reasons are:

First--> If I go to school earlier, before 6.30am, I'll get bothered by a bitchy girl in my class. Seriously, i hate that! Everyday morning need to wake up sooooooo early  (and my mood isn't that good if i didn't sleep enough), already feel sien about this then when go to school sit in the class, the bitchy girl use her act cute voice keep on talking and i was like wtf can shut the fuck up or not?!! I really wanna tell her:"You wanna act cute pls see how cute you are first. You really thought you're very cute with a voice like that? You think your voice are so seductive?!! WHAT THE FUCK?!!" If is in college i can use earphone to block that fucking voice but now i'm still in secondary school! sien.

Second---> If i go to school after 6.30am, I have to face those prefects. And again, i also hate this very much! I'm holding so many books (sometime one book only) with a bottle, I still have to outstretch my hand to show them my fingernails. Alright, since that's the school rules and it cannot be changed even i'm suuuppeeeeeerr not happy about it there's nothing else i can complain about  it. BUT, 8 or 6 prefects standing aside,  i already went through them, then the last one (usually is konsul) still want stops me and check my nails again?!! WTF?!!! Then what's the prefects who are standing in front for?! Are they just statues only?!!!

So i really hate to go to school. I don't care i'll failed stpm i just want stpm come ASAP then i can leave that fucking school ASAP!! Really can't stand anymore. Go to school, starts with very bad starting, then when in class also very sien so many homeworks la some teacher la, after school still need extra class or club meeting. Form 6 is torturing! Especially in this school!

Darn that teacher!

FUCK. Seriously pissed off by my physics teacher. First day go back to school on the second period, I ate rotan!! Wtf.. Hey I really don't happy about this. Yeah I know the reason is i failed my physics topical test, but i really can't accept this punishment as she has no right to do this! She teaches like an idiot. She only read out what's on the stupid (and some are different from our reference book) teaching courseware. After she read out she just explained what's the sentences mean. Ahpu!! Like that I also can be teacher ok, why don't let me read out all the craps in the teaching courseware and every month I get her salary??!! I don't expect the teachers nowadays will care and concern about their students but please la.. As a teacher, you get the salary (and it's from the tax we paid), do what you should do la duh! What the hell with that punishment since you're like shit! Hate you!! =A=

see someday I hit you like this ya!! *groan*

PS: I accidentally scold "fuck" when she canned me. Haha how rude I am. =.="

The end.