Love You, Dad

Some of you might be wonder about my title since now is not Father's day. I have a bad news here, my dad is gone today. 

It happened too sudden, I hardly accept it. My mom wake me up nervously around 5am and told me my dad isn't breathing anymore. Of course i'm not believing this at first, thought I might still dreaming or just a prank from my dad. Then I went to his room and found he's really not breathing anymore. I shocked. No breath and cold body. I was stunned and my mom keep asking me how. My mind was blank, but i know i have to make decision, i have to do something. Then i called ambulans here, the doctor came and confirm my dad is dead. Then I know, it's neither dream nor prank, it is a truth that can't be denied. 

When on the way bring my dad's body to hospital, many memories flash back in my mind. The lunch I had yesterday, is my favourite broccoli and chicken soup. My dad knew I don't have broccoli and soup in hostel, he knew i'm craving for those when i'm not at home. Think of the words he said before, he said he will go to my graduation ceremony and give me a big banquet of flowers. Think of the smile and greet he had when he saw me back from Johor. I feel so sad when I know I can't have it anymore in the future. 

I really regret of not spending time with him. For all my besties, you know I don't like my dad. I harsh to him all the time. Now I don't have the chance to treat him nice anymore. Sorry dad, I was immature, all i see only bad in people, I always ignore the good side of you and enlarge your bad. Although sorry is too late, but i'm still wanna say:

Sorry dad, and i love you. You're the best guy in this world and i know you are the only man who loved me the most. Hope you stay happily in heaven. I will do my best to support family, don't worry. 

PS: Thanks to all my dear friends for comforting me. I am really very touched. I'm nothing without you guys. Love you all too.