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Saturday, September 24, 2011

【你暗地里来我光明正大去】如果我的人生是一部电影,你就是弹出来的一个广告。

发这章不是为了泄恨,而是为了将这件事情完全的放下。不要多想,以看故事那样的看过吧~ 如果你觉得我说的全是鸟话,我也无话可说。因为我知道我才没有无聊到在自己记录人生的部落格里说鸟话。
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其实对于这个人,我只能老实说,我是真的不喜欢她。认识她是在我进入中六的时候。怎么说呢,其实呢我对她的感觉就不怎么好了。总觉得她会是我讨厌的那种人。相处久后,我发现我的感觉果真没错。

她的性格,真的很糟糕。(不好意思脑子里就是冒出这句话 Orz) 其实我看得出她是个自我意识过剩的人。 =.= 讲她一句她回你几百句,说是debate team的叻。那就算了,我也不想跟这样的人多说话。不过说到不想说话,我是真的不想跟她说话。我知道我这个烂人的各种表现都很明显(我很想改 Orz|||),我也觉得这样忽略她我真的是太坏了。那为什么还要忽略她呢?那这个问题你是不懂我的答案了,你可不知道跟她说话那种TMD感觉。往事不堪回首,我也不解释了。感觉真的很烂!我还有一段时间为了她心情郁闷得要死。现在想起来我内心仍然郁闷啊他妈的。*捶胸口*

我不懂为什么,每当她跟我说讨厌谁谁谁的时候,我就很想告诉她其实你跟他们没差。炫耀成绩,你何尝不是那样。你不知道为什么上chem时我总会换位下的原因吧,那是因为我不想听你的hao lian鸟话。其他各种我就不提了,从我口中说出来虽然是实话但不觉得是在黑人吗?一个人自己的缺点是靠自己跟别人去发现的(关于这个我差不多每晚睡觉时都会想我自己的烂缺点坑爹的也是我失眠的原因但现在累到不会失眠啦 哈哈哈)。就算别人发现了你的缺点,告诉你大概你会觉得根本就是那个人的问题吧。

记得她曾经发过信息,问我是不是不喜欢她。在此我想向她说声抱歉,对不起我说谎了。其实我看到那信息时,我第一个打的答案是“是有点”。然而我觉得做人不需这么过分,虽然她的糟糕性格我真得很dulan,但真正来说她对朋友也不错(矛盾?oRZ)。所以我才回了“才没有,不要想太多。” 在那一刻,我回了这封信息,那封信息也就代表着我必须改自己好好跟她相处。但事情演变成这种地步,意思也就是我并不能改变自己。

真正的让我觉得这家伙根本就是个他妈的王八蛋的原因是她发给sh的话。我懂sh在facebook上说了什么“不相信我就不要问我”也算是她的错在先。不过看了她的鸟话我觉得她根本就是不爽我们很久现在借此机会来个大翻脸。因为她inbox了sh(为何我会知道?因为sh征求我的意见),sh根本就是低声下气跟她道歉了(哦老天如果是我我可办不到啊办不到╮(╯▽╰)╭),她还是说那么多话。说什么“ 我不喜欢有人在没向我提出原因前就在公共的地方指责我”。姐姐,你没那么做吗?你随后也发了个status在说我们吧?难道我们的fb是公开的你的是非公开的??我这个坏人就叫sh不要理她不要回复她了sh还是问我要如何回复她。所以我就大概写了个回复给sh,怎知被改得又是低声下气的了(跟原先我写的语气真是差天差地)。然后气人的来了,她的回复超级他妈。看样子压根儿没想过要原谅sh。那就算了,我就说不要理她我们自己没了她过得也会很开心。(我是超级大坏蛋哈哈)之后真的翻脸了。

啊,说真的对于翻脸我觉得很好我真的还蛮开心的。那么我就不用再忍她了天杀的你可不知道那日子有多难熬。可是灾难渐渐开始。 =.=||| 她,到处黑我们。为什么我说是黑?因为我知道她的为人。她一讨厌人她所说出来的可没半句是好的。 也不知是我多想还是什么,我似乎发现了别人的异样眼光。 =A= 嘛,这是我预料到的,别人选择相信她我也不能怎样。这方面还是得佩服她,她人前人后两个样真的很够力。多多学习,出社会也会比较吃香。某次还听到从她口中冒出”他们真的很过分”。姐姐,你比我们更过分的我不想再提了。至于我们一直以来四千金形象太令人深刻了,一有人分道扬镳别人怎不过问。对于这点我问心无愧对着十字架说,别人问我我都不多说。因为我觉得翻了脸,没必要再搞事非。自己过自己的,不理对方就好。她貌似跟很多人说了,别人都可怜她问我们怎么可以这样对她(嘛,我没被问到啦谢天谢地我认识的人不多)。看样子她真的把她自己说得很委屈。算了,that's her style ╮(╯▽╰)╭ 我一直忍。虽然嘴巴说不在意他人的眼光,但偏偏我就是那他娘的连路人甲的眼光都在意的要死的废人。可我还是忍,因为我觉得要出社会了,以后可能还会遇到这样的人(我擦短短十九年可是第一次遇到这样的人能的话不要再来第二次了),要学习如何退一步海阔天空。但是今天听到她请了Mr. Teh教MT2,貌似暗地里策划不让我们知道,而且还牵涉与这事毫无关系的人。我知道我的忍耐已到了极限。(望上这段好长啊去下一段好了)

我真的很想拿只抢,塞进她嘴里然后开到子弹完(O.O!! potential murderer!?)。妈的你怎样黑人没关系,还搞三搞四。我真的无语了………… 我想说,你好肤浅好幼稚。事情变成这样难道是我们的错而已?从来没想过是你自己糟糕的性格惹的祸?哦对,你说了,是朋友就懂你是这样的性格。真对不起,我老妈生我下来可不是要我当个受气包,看来这段友谊我与你是无缘搭上了。生气到了极点时而冷静下来,想开了。我决定把你踢出我的人生电影里,这广告真是他娘的太烂了。从今以后你要怎样随你,你自个儿过你的阳光大道边派传单黑我,我依然会开心的过我的独木桥。不会再让你影响我的情绪,因为这世界多的是真正需要我放心思的人而那个人绝不会是你。

宁愿被人恨,也不愿被人怜。其实我也是很幸福的了。我身边有对我最真诚对我好的不得了的朋友们(相比之下对不起感觉上我总是亏待你们 Orz)。我还奢求什么呢?没必要为了不再是我朋友所说的话而生气,更没必要为了根本就不存在的事情而动怒。她黑的人只是挂上我的名字。我真正是不是那样的人,我知道我真正的朋友也会知道。这就足够了不是吗?至于原谅,我懂你压根儿没想要我们原谅你。放心,我没想过要原谅你。你对我朋友造成的伤害,你让他们伤心难过我都看在眼里这让我恨不得把你碎尸万段。我知道写这些的我跟你一样,幼稚肤浅。但这将会是最后一次,我要停止这广告,继续我的电影。

The end.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

I don't care.

I don't care and wouldn't mind if you stab me behind. Cause for those who really good with me will know what kind a person i am and those who choose to believe you i can do nothing also. I don't need good reputation among the people, i don't care how many friends i have. Well, about friend i can say it's doesn't matter about the quantity is about the quality. xP A true friend will fully understand what kind of person i am. 

That's it. I kinda pity you cause you dunno your mistake and you will keep on repeating the same mistake till got people really really get annoyed by you. Good luck bitch. ^^

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

The Hare and the Tortoise

I feel so depressed when today i dunno how to do MT1 during the exam. Then i get back my physics paper 2, yeah well as usual result again. That seriously made me feel worst. I know my maths is not good, but i do really take it seriously. I studied mt only last night, that cause me didn't study PA at all and of cause today also can't do well in PA paper. But then when comes to exam, it seems like nothing is in my head. So with physics, i asked seniors to help us, i spend my time my energy too for physics but i still get bad result at last. I thought i understand all those things that they taught, or just actually i didn't get it but i dunno? 

Perhaps this is because of my own attitude. Just like the hare in the story of "The Hare and the Tortoise". I'm too ego. Just because i think that i can do it then i stop and take a rest while the they're still moving to the destination. At last, this is what i am, A LOSER. 

Now and then i should try to change myself before stpm. Feel so hopeless and don't want sit for stpm already. Just can't take the failure again :(

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Bye Harry~

Just back from watching Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2 with rebecca~ this movie is cool and awesome and you'll never regret to spend RM9 for it! haha

Before we watch part 2, we went to Pizza Hut for our lunch and watch part 1. Cause i haven't watch part one yet. But then dunno why the hell my laptop low batt, then it shut down directly. Zzz =.=||| I thought i charge fully already. Then we watched part 2 without part 1 first. Luckily i had read some of it last time~ haha

When i went there i saw siew jing, sze nin and the other 2 ppl. And you know what?? We booked the same row of the seats! 這就是所謂的猿糞!hahaha ><

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2

So that's the end of it.. 10 years. This series of movie has been with us for 10 years! I'm kinda sad with its end but at least it has a good ending.. (but i really don't like Ginny!!) By the way, Hermoine and Ron are so sweet haha XD

Let's us recall back all the series of harry potter (hey are you too free lol) XD

Harry Potter and the Philosopher's stone
So this is where the journey begins~ 


Cute Harry >////< 

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets


Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
I like this chapter the most where Harry met Sirius Black. haha

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix 
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince 

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1

So that's it. Bye Harry~ TT^TT 
Time flies and no more another 10 years~ 

The end. 

Saturday, July 16, 2011

The coming STPM

Not fast not slow, STPM is coming. 

Now is still July, perhaps some of you will think it is still far away from November. Actually i tell you here, time is totally NOT ENOUGH for those who didn't do their preparation well. As for me, i think i really have to start to follow my own timetable, which is no online only study study study. Since i'm here, obviously i failed to do so. T^T I really can't sit down, take a book out and study study study. Seriously I CANNOT! I know not more time for me to slacking around but i just... haiz.... :( 

Now i'm thinking, what if i really failed my stpm.. No ways i would retake it anymore, but i still need to continue my studies. I know how useless i can be with only one spm result which is still not the best as compared to other ppl. If i failed my stpm, i need to take foundation or study diploma. Everything has to start all over again. And taking foundation or diploma is not free like form 6. At last, i might end up like a..... junk, rubbish.. 

How? Need someone to force me? I have no idea........... 


Remember:
125 days to go. 

-STPM and MUET 2011-


The end. 

Friday, June 24, 2011

1 Malaysia Netbook


I got it! haha the 1 Malaysia netbook. XD


So this is how it looks like.. and ar... What's this brand huh?? Never see before la.. so lousy  Still got 1 Malaysia logo on it What the hell i'm gonna stick something on it hahaha

Ok stop complaining as Malaysia is the best country and only give the good things for us. hahahaha (I bet u know what i really mean xD)   LOL 


Actually not bad la.. still got webcam ba.. It's better than my expectation? Just inside is so empty need to put something in lor.. hmm put SOMETHING in. *evil grin* HAHAHA 


Besides, still got free one sim card for broadband service. Just need to reload RM25 every month. But i wonder what speed i can have for RM25.. =.= (cause now i'm using RM70 one yet so lag Orz|||) But it's ok, cause government will sponsor for the first month! That's mean free access! If the link is really lag, i'll just throw the card away, throw into longkang. 


Now i should say this to my lappy:"You're not alone! XD" hahahaha lame edit lol just ignore me la haha

The end. 

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Back to kuching!

So i went back to kuching on 28th May. I have waited that day for a long time, but one week is just flies so fast and now i'm back. I wanna shout: 

ONE WEEK IS NOT ENOUGH AT ALL!!!

Well, what can do~ The second week is full of activities. TAT Alright stop saying this shitty thing let me share some fun moments when i was at kuching. Actually i would like to share it day by day but i don't have much photos and i don't have good memory.. haha so caution! This gonna be a long long post!  (I guess)XD

my pretty besties! 

We went to 木木小屋 at the first place but there don't have the pearl milk tea that we want. So we just leave there and go to Kado. The burger is so big and nice and CHEAP. haha 


hmm this photo i think it's on second day. We went to swinburne library to study. Yeah it's study! But after a few minutes, yun said wanna go to sing k. LOL.. But then so many troubles happened so lastly we didn't make it. 
PS: ying remember your mistake?? hahahahaha

Hmmm... i didn't take any photos when sing k. But that definitely is one of the fun moments! Ying them sang so loud and we played till so crazy! That was really fun and i believe this kind of fun won't be the same with others. You know, only some ppl that can really crazy around with you and they're your irreplaceable true friends ❤

and i also went out with shirley, amelyn and rebecca too! They didn't change a lot, well no one change so much till i can't recognize~ Having so much fun with them in Kbox. Unfortunately i can't spend so much time with them.. Can't have movie together but it's ok we'll have it next time! =w=


I also went to McD with Gloria and her sis Kimberly. Thanks Glo treat me McD and gave me the coke can cup! I finally get it! haha We queue up for around one hour to get this. LOL  Kim's voice is really nice eh when i heard it. The kind of voice that i like hahaha >////< 



Steamboat at ying's house for her uncle who came back from New Zealand. Her uncle speaks english one and i'm kinda scare to talk with him cause my english really lousy. Orz||| and i ate abalone! hahahaha LOL when we're having our steamboat then shan called us to go to her house to eat BBQ foods! That night really full chin chin er. First round steamboat then second round BBQ. haha

They're so bad squeeze me like that haha xD
Shan's family were celebrating the little bro's birthday. I love that taiwan sausage very much~! I keep on putting the sausage into my mouth. Not to forget the nice ice cream cake! yum yum ><


After we eat till full full, we chat and then started play with the nail colours. Shan helps ying colour till very nice ar. haha wanna know go see her album i don't have the photos. haha~ That was a fun night also. Girl's night ❤ 

At here i would like to thank you all for let me enjoy the best in kuching. Without you guys, there won't have so much fun. Ying's uncle said, usually secondary school's friends can stay longer than university's friends. Yes i couldn't agree more. I hope after years we still hang out together! You guys are like no other, so special and not so annoying like others. haha you know, i'm kinda not really good with all other ppl. haha~~  I miss you all! One week is soooooooooooo short! Next time i'll go back for months stay till i sien hahahaha


Bye~ Lastly 来场散场的拥抱with shan and ying. Yun don't want hug with me cause she said i'm disgusting. =.=||| 

Take care my dear friends! 

This story never ends.  It'll continue after i back to kuching again! >w<


More photos from: 
2. shan's facebook (this one got mix with others haha but mostly is me! hahahaha)