Love You, Dad

Some of you might be wonder about my title since now is not Father's day. I have a bad news here, my dad is gone today. 

It happened too sudden, I hardly accept it. My mom wake me up nervously around 5am and told me my dad isn't breathing anymore. Of course i'm not believing this at first, thought I might still dreaming or just a prank from my dad. Then I went to his room and found he's really not breathing anymore. I shocked. No breath and cold body. I was stunned and my mom keep asking me how. My mind was blank, but i know i have to make decision, i have to do something. Then i called ambulans here, the doctor came and confirm my dad is dead. Then I know, it's neither dream nor prank, it is a truth that can't be denied. 

When on the way bring my dad's body to hospital, many memories flash back in my mind. The lunch I had yesterday, is my favourite broccoli and chicken soup. My dad knew I don't have broccoli and soup in hostel, he knew i'm craving for those when i'm not at home. Think of the words he said before, he said he will go to my graduation ceremony and give me a big banquet of flowers. Think of the smile and greet he had when he saw me back from Johor. I feel so sad when I know I can't have it anymore in the future. 

I really regret of not spending time with him. For all my besties, you know I don't like my dad. I harsh to him all the time. Now I don't have the chance to treat him nice anymore. Sorry dad, I was immature, all i see only bad in people, I always ignore the good side of you and enlarge your bad. Although sorry is too late, but i'm still wanna say:

Sorry dad, and i love you. You're the best guy in this world and i know you are the only man who loved me the most. Hope you stay happily in heaven. I will do my best to support family, don't worry. 

PS: Thanks to all my dear friends for comforting me. I am really very touched. I'm nothing without you guys. Love you all too. 

Korean BBQ

Last Thursday i skipped my Mathematics class to go have Korean BBQ! Guilty? Nah, since there's no difference between i go or not. I just go to the class, sit down take my phone out connect to wifi surf fb, twitter, plurk, weibo and ta~da~, class is over. haha (i'm a jerk and i know it)

korean's style spoon & fork LOL

I'm kinda lazy to say more................. Orz

Pork and chicken. I love the pork! HAHAHAHA

Kimchi la, bla bla and bla bla bla. I dunno how to call those food, maybe are just appetizers or something to eat with the meat, you know, korean style the meat is wrapped with vege. LOL

Fried rice cake（炒年糕）I love this the most!!!! ><

It's charcoal burning under this! haha I saw the waiter put the burning charcoal inside. XD

Btw, this is nice also. haha

Start to bbq the pork!! hahaha so exciting 

Cut into pieces LOL 

I ordered rice cause those meats aren't gonna make me full. The rice is served in a small stainless steel container and i want that container cause it's so cute! LOL

A little cooling desert for the end~ haha

That's all. This post feel like so cincai. But who cares, not so many ppl read pun. XD

University Life + KL Trip

Wow it had been a long time since the previous blog post. I blame this on my laziness and procrastination lol, or perhaps the social networks that made us update our little tiny piece of craps so easily till there's no need to update bloggie. haha 

So time flies, i have been here for 2 months dy, gone through test and still in the progress of rushing assignments (same old me as usual). Think of when i first came here, i was with LOADS of luggage (FYI, my luggage was overweight by 5KG so i have to pay RM25/KG wtf).

 First week in university i felt like dying because of the hell-ish orientation week. I tell you, for those who are going to local university, PLEASE BE PREPARED for the orientation week. We had to wake up very early (around 6am i heard some uni is 5), then we were back to our own hostel on 12 midnight, with dead body LOL. Only 2 days passed i already homesick. Now think of it still very scary. haha Well, everyone must go through this XD

Talk about my hostel, it's really sucks just like what i have thought before. I can't stand the freaking SMALL fan spinning aimlessly on the ceiling. That fan is sort of like a table fan which is install on the ceiling wtf. I was really depressed every night when i go to sleep. I can't sleep well cause IT'S SO FUCKING HOT!! But then i made some changes for my own sake la. haha secret im not going to say it here (but most of the ppl know dy). 

Anyways, i do have a great time here! Met a lots of nice and fun people. I was kinda scared of meeting weird and annoying people (social phobia caused by form 6), luckily everything is nice and sweet for me. >< And about my coursemates, which are ALL MALAYS, also very nice! To be honest, I was very frustrated when i first find out i'm the only chinese in my course. But then when i mix up with them, i found that actually there's nothing one. They're nice and friendly to me. I like them! haha Some see i'm quite quiet in the class, that is because i can't speak malay well. LOL. If i can't speak, then i will just shut up. I afraid ppl thought i am an arrogant person orz

So uni life is just like that lor, nothing special~

Now about KL trip! This is my first time go to KL! KL really really is a big city!! (yeah i admit i'm a kampung kia) I was planning to go to Kinokuniya Bookstore to buy my kuroko no basuke character bible. But when i was there, i found that is out of stock dy, heart broke into pieces. :((( 

KL trip is fun! Thanks to my friend shoggi! I have a KL friend! Hahaha! She provides us accommodation, brought us go everywhere we want and intro us nice foods. We were like shopping, shopping and shopping everyday (well this is kl haha). Her mother is a very nice person also(and funny cause she talks very straightforward one hahaha)! And everyday i have a super duper wonderful meal here! (the food of uni's cafeteria is a nightmare) 

How fun i am having? You can see from the photos i've posted on Facebook! haha I'm really keen on taking photos and post it on Facebook or instagram! (lazy to say more)

*look at the time*

haha gotta sleep now!

PS: i had been a long time didn't sleep at this time cause i am having morning class everyday! TT.TT

The Coming University's Life

After a long waiting for almost half a year, i get my university notice already. I did bad in my USM interview as i wrote before in my blog (--click to read--), so i totally get screwed up. I failed in USM intake. Instead, i get the offer from University Tun Hussein Onn Malaysia (UTHM) located at Batu Pahat, Johor. The course i get offered is Bachelor of Civil Engineering Technology (Building Services) Honours.

Is it the course i get was in my options when i fill the form? YES, it is. Yet it's my fifth option. Why i choose this? It's a stupid long story. Ask me if you really wanna know. LOL 

At first i was like cannot accept the truth of getting an unknown course that dunno what's the actual career available for it. Not to mention this university is not in my wanting list. But then what i can do? I can't reject the offer and go find a better university and course to study. Can't afford for the costly fee of private university. :(

 And yes, i'm actually very disappointed cause i can't in any better university. Never think of i'll have day like this. Maybe i was too lucky before, everything just as smooth as i wanted it to be. So now, i'm really frustrated cause i can't get the one i want and this is very important matter that will affects my future. I know some of you would say "They accept you so you just go for it. It's better than none." Well, better said than done. Very easy for you to say something like that, you haven't been in my shoes and i know you wouldn't care less. So i'm not going to ask anyone's opinion anymore. 

Did some research on my course and my university. Basically it's not a satisfying answer for me. Perhaps I'm asking too much. Too much to think, wanting too much, uncertainty for future, all of these stop you from moving on. So imma follow and continue with what i have now. I believe i can change it, i can do better than others. Although what i get is carbon, but i can make it into diamond also. haha nah, just kidding. :P

This week started to prepare all the documents needed for university and applying for ptptn loan. It's pretty troublesome and i feel so lazy to do it. LOL procrastination and laziness will kill me someday. Today just done my medical check-up, everything is normal. But my coughing still haven't fully recovered. = = Having tonnes of problems in my mind! Urghhh. 

Shoo problems shoo troubles! Gotta sleep now. 

-The end-

New Luxury Toy

Just get myself a smartphone on tuesday. It's Samsung Galaxy S2~

My review about it? Gosh I dunno why the hell this phone like to hang almost all the time! = = I seriously get fed up by this stupid phone. I have to reboot it again and again and again and(never-end-story). fuck. But then i like its 8MP camera with 2MP front camera XD Gotta snaps tonnes of photosssss >< About android, well im totally an idiot in electronic thingy, so i would just skip this part. 

Hmm.. Just wanna say, come whatsapp or viber me! haha not going to download line la cubie la bla bla.. kinda meaningless if you have so many social apps but  no one finds you. Making you feel even lonely hahaha

So that's it~


PS: btw do you think my tittle for this post sound so haolian? haha actually i loan money from my mom de TT.TT from now on gotta even work hard in saving money = =

USM Interview @ Kuching

I get shortlisted for the interview for Quantity Survey course offered in USM.

this screen shot is for hao lian purpose hahahaha

Now, i am going to start to say something annoying, that is "I am not really interested in QS". Actually already don't really like qs cause a quantity surveyor's job is to estimate the costs, profits, time bla bla for a construction. That's mean, you need to calculate A LOT and I hate maths. = = By the way some says actually a civil engineer also can do what a quantity surveyor do. Well, i dunno is real or not, it depends actually. Then i heard, being a quantity surveyor is superb busy! You might need to do OT and after you have done your boss might don't like your estimation and hell yeah you gonna do overnight again. I don't think i can stand that. 

Bla bla bla but still i was going to the interview. This time, no biaramas cause i went back by plane! *shouting airasia everyone can fly~~* But this time this air tickets very expensive la. *sob* spent RM173 for it :'( 3 days 2 nights RM173 fuqqqqqqq But nevermind, cause i live free at ah ying house hahahaha

Talk about the interview, aww i think i act stupidly. = = I was reached at there around 8 something then waiting for my turn. (oh ya just wanna say im lucky no.7 LOL) Since i'm the seventh candidate, so i have asked some of the previous candidates about their interview. They told me, the interviewers are asking them according to a form, then they will ask something else for example like current issue, what are your weaknesses and strengths that your teacher might think bla bla. Mostly will ask about current issue la. Then i was kinda nervous cause i didn't read newspaper recently. About current issue all my mind was full with BERSIH. lol By the way, i get nervous also because of i saw them prepared their own script and they have a thick clear holder of certs while i only have berapa keping kertas saja. 

When is my turn, i just went in and greet with the interviewers. And yeah, they really do ask me questions according to the form. Firstly ask my name, where im from, what's my results. Then they asked me "Is QS is your first choice?" Well, i knew they'll ask question like that, and i also have an answer for it, but what i said is "NO. And actually i'm not interested in qs." I also dunno why the hell i answer like that. Then they asked me, why you still put it in the first option? "cause when fill in the form, the courses need to be interviewed have to put in the first and second choice right?" See how honest stupid i am. They continue by asking me what's my pilihan in upu, what is my second option for usm. I told them my second choice in usm is forensic science and my first choice in upu is major in chemistry. They was kinda shocked and asked "why your options all different one". Seriously, my first option is upu i also wanna put forensic science but only forensic science in usm doesn't require bio and yes, i told them so. I was telling them i'm interested in forensic science because i like to watch CSI. I think my brain was short-circuit that time LOL then we're just like chatting non-sense. After that they've done with questioning me. I was scared and quickly asked "you don't have any other questions for me?" cause im waiting them to ask me current issue bla bla. They told me i did enough good dy(if i didn't remember wrongly) and still turn to ask do i have any questions for them. 

Stupid right? And i'm really concern about WHERE IS THE CURRENT ISSUE QUESTION FOR ME??!!!!!! Now i don't think i got the chance to study at usm liao. *sob*

By the way, my MUnSyI Test (personality test of usm) get 77 which is higher than average! haha i dunno what's that 77 stands for la, maybe some sort of marks for particular courses.

Ok, end with interview. I eventually had enjoy myself with my friends in these few days. Went to shopping and i wanna say it again I WANT THE MNG BAG!!!!!!!!!!!!  haha XD 

Pictures ❤❤

ojipala members XD i love group photo!

my besties! hahaha cant stop laughing when see this pic

love this pic very much! currently is my fb timeline's cover photo <3

So cute~! Like it very much by kelly >///< 

The end. 

STPM Result

After almost 2 months waiting, finally i get my result on 7th March. And yes i get satisfying result! My CGPA is more than 3! XD

Actually i didn't expect to get CGPA more than 3. Seriously, not i hao lian or what, cause during school exam i never get CGPA more than 1. I failed all subjects (except Pengajian Am), and i only pass in Chemistry in last school exam. So i really didn't hope for good result, merely 2.0 i already can be happy. So when i received my result from sms, i was so damn happy! I never think of i can get more than 3. Really thank God for that! At that moment, the one and a half year hell-ish form 6 life is flashing through my mind and although still think it's not worth but at least is not wasted. 

Yeah getting such result is happy but after that when apply for local university then found out actually my result is not enough for it. :( Yeah i admit i only see the entry requirements of top university because i really have no confident in Malaysia's universities. That's why i wanna choose better one. I heard some university is very lousy till the lecturer there dunno how to speak english and only teach in malay. = =

 I'm aiming for USM(University Sains Malaysia), and just bought the usm pin number which costs RM40 (so fucking expensive). Although my CGPA had reach their requirement but i didn't meet their requirement for the grade of particular subject. Kinda disappointed. I knew the entry requirements of local universities are high but never thought of they also emphasize on subjects. So as a conclusion, for the one who are studying form 6, i tell you, getting CGPA more than 3 isn't enough. You have to get at least all B+, no B and B-. Well different story if you're not aiming for top university. 

hmm.. nothing else to say so the end! haha