I regret i choose Kolej Laila Taib to further my studies.
And now, i regret study Form 6.
I hate myself taking decision before thinking twice, or sometime i did think it twice but just didn't think wisely. All the things that i did are regrettable. But what had pass already is history in my life. It can't be changed anymore. There's no use if i regret here but cannot do anything about it. I just have to continue on. Grrr.. Hope that next time i won't make the same mistake again. Preferably NO NEXT TIME! =)
Dunno since when, this question became an everyday must ask question (so everyday get scolded by mom =.=) I really sick of going to school everyday (argh at here i wanna state that weekdays almost is everyday), every time when i reached school i sure get myself angry one. =A= The reasons are:
First--> If I go to school earlier, before 6.30am, I'll get bothered by a bitchy girl in my class. Seriously, i hate that! Everyday morning need to wake up sooooooo early (and my mood isn't that good if i didn't sleep enough), already feel sien about this then when go to school sit in the class, the bitchy girl use her act cute voice keep on talking and i was like wtf can shut the fuck up or not?!! I really wanna tell her:"You wanna act cute pls see how cute you are first. You really thought you're very cute with a voice like that? You think your voice are so seductive?!! WHAT THE FUCK?!!" If is in college i can use earphone to block that fucking voice but now i'm still in secondary school! sien.
Second---> If i go to school after 6.30am, I have to face those prefects. And again, i also hate this very much! I'm holding so many books (sometime one book only) with a bottle, I still have tooutstretch my hand to show them my fingernails. Alright, since that's the school rules and it cannot be changed even i'm suuuppeeeeeerr not happy about it there's nothing else i can complain about it. BUT, 8 or 6 prefects standing aside, i already went through them, then the last one (usually is konsul) still want stops me and check my nails again?!! WTF?!!! Then what's the prefects who are standing in front for?! Are they just statues only?!!!
So i really hate to go to school. I don't care i'll failed stpm i just want stpm come ASAP then i can leave that fucking school ASAP!! Really can't stand anymore. Go to school, starts with very bad starting, then when in class also very sien so many homeworks la some teacher la, after school still need extra class or club meeting. Form 6 is torturing! Especially in this school!
Yeah that's how i feel right now, at this moment. The journey of my life is too mountainous. Too many mountains need to climb and I have no energy to climb over it anymore.
Stop?
Back to the starting point?
I know I can't do so. I still need to continue on, keep on climbing until i've reached my own destination. But now..............................
I'M SICK OF IT.
Seriously, now i need someone to pull me up cause i'm falling down. Haven't reach the top of it i'm already falling down. How weak I am? I admit that I really cannot survive alone. I need to rely on someone. I'm just a weak parasites. Stopping here and waiting for the person come and rescue me.
But, the way never ends. The road is still continue on. The mountain is still there. I still haven't reach my destination.
So today is 14th Feb, is the most popular festival (oh i only can think of the word "festival") among the teenagers. Oh well, from facebook you can see that the one who have their own partner to celebrate this day will post what their bf/gf did happily. On the other hand, single one will emphasize they're still single. It's kinda pity to look at those single ppl, they'll feel sad about this day cause they don't have ppl to celebrate with. Of cause some of them said single is very good bla bla which I think actually they're just comforting themselves. HAHAHA xP
Well, for me la, i think that is not necessary valentine must celebrate with bf/gf. It's not i want to say:"ohhh single is soooo good!" it just like, this kind of thing it's not you want then you can get it right. It depends on fate. You have the fate, you'll meet the one for you. If not, just wait~ I saw this on sina(微博）, God will give you what you want; if He shake his head refuse you, that's mean he will give you a better one; if He let you wait, means that He wants to give you the best. So what would you so desperate on something that's haven't is yours? Keep on waiting, until yours is come, so that you know how to appreciate him/her, so that you can choose a better one that suit yourself, so that you and him/her can celebrate valentine until the end of your life. Isn't better than every year you're celebrating with different ppl? So need not to be sad if this year you're still single, as the best is waiting for you on the coming years!
I would like to post some photos here but my line doesn't allow me to do so. =A= wth dunno why recently is so fucking lag that i can't do much things when online. Perhaps it's time for me to stop always surfing in cyber world. Haha
Lastly, well really last cause it's almost over~ Happy Valentine's Day!
FUCK. Seriously pissed off by my physics teacher. First day go back to school on the second period, I ate rotan!! Wtf.. Hey I really don't happy about this. Yeah I know the reason is i failed my physics topical test, but i really can't accept this punishment as she has no right to do this! She teaches like an idiot. She only read out what's on the stupid (and some are different from our reference book) teaching courseware. After she read out she just explained what's the sentences mean. Ahpu!! Like that I also can be teacher ok, why don't let me read out all the craps in the teaching courseware and every month I get her salary??!! I don't expect the teachers nowadays will care and concern about their students but please la.. As a teacher, you get the salary (and it's from the tax we paid), do what you should do la duh! What the hell with that punishment since you're like shit! Hate you!! =A=
see someday I hit you like this ya!! *groan*
PS: I accidentally scold "fuck" when she canned me. Haha how rude I am. =.="
Thank you
I’m glad that you’re here
No matter the time
I can always smile
No matter how many years pass while we’re away from each other
Nothing will have changed
We’re Best Friends
I love you, I really love you
I’m sorry for waiting so long to say this
I was driven into a corner alone
When I hear your faint voice
I felt like I could make it
I can tell you anything
Even things I can’t tell my mom
You understand better than anyone
When I’m happy you’re just as happy for me
And you’re the one to scold me when I’m wrong
Thank you
I’m glad that you’re here
No matter the time
I can always smile
No matter how many years pass while we’re away from each other
Nothing will have changed
We’re Best Friends
I love you, I really love you
You quickly see through my pretenses
When I’m feeling down
You’re the first to send me caring emails
That have saved me so many times
You said I should go ahead and cry when I feel like crying
Because you’d be at my side
My greatest ally
I wonder if there’s anything I can do for someone like you?
When I figure it out I’ll race over to you, I promise
Thank you
I’m glad that you’re here
No matter the time
I can always smile
No matter how many years pass while we’re away from each other
Nothing will have changed
We’re Best Friends
I love you, I really love you
I’ll always be praying
I want you to be the happiest person in the world
Thank you
I’m glad that you’re here
No matter the time
I can always smile
No matter how many years pass while we’re away from each other
Nothing will have changed
We’re Best Friends
I love you, I really love you
Friends, are the ppl who're supporting you behind. I've lots of friends, but for me, my best friends only have some which I think not more than 10 ppl. haha~ Not everyone can be my best friends (not because I'm arrogant ya >.<") Best friends are those special for me, always help me no matter what trouble I'm having, always there besides me when I'm down. At here, I really wanna say:
Thank you. I'm not perfect, I'm bad, always be ridiculous, but thanks for still always be there for me. You pull me up when I'm really down. I'm really really glad that you're here. When I'm doing sth wrongly, you'll point out and advice me (although sometime I've been shoot till die haha) I hope no matter how many years pass, no matter how far we're away from each other, no matter how everything around us had change, our friendship will never sink and change!
So here come the Chinese biggest, nosiest and the most festive festival -----> Chinese New Year!
Well, of cause it is the Chinese biggest festival cause for Chinese it's the start of the year (in lunar calender). It's sure is happiest festival for all the kids (cause can wear new clothes and get angpau xD) but maybe it's not really happy for some adults cause they have to spent A LOT during CNY. Maybe no one cares about this cause it's only comes once a year!
Pandora Heart
So this year is rabbit year~ (aww i really like the picture above the way they do the bunny ear is sooooooo cute ><) Rabbit... Really is a kawaii animal nah.. haha but i won't keep it as pet. Cause I don't like pet. haha
New year eve I ate a lot a lot of food! The whole year only new year eve you can eat many 'hao liao'. (but 初一就是吃剩下的了 囧）哈哈。。华人新年还是打华文吧 （虽然有点麻烦）。 今天一整天都去拜年。话说，我真的很不喜欢去拜年。因为很累，一家一家的去~ 而且我会晕车啊！诗巫的路还像月球表面那样，凹凸不平的弄到我更晕~ @@ 然后到了亲戚家也没什么好玩的，看电视想转台我又不敢问，表哥表姐那些都年纪大了，他们的孩子又太小... =.= 不过还好啦，那些小孩子也蛮好玩的！哈哈哈。。The angpau money not much also (hey why you type back english?) sien le.. After whole day of visiting when i reached home really really exhausted. I directly jump into my warm and cozy bed and sleep around 3 or 4 hours (argh i should change this habit =A=) After woke up my head still dizzy~ but one thing for sure. my stomach is still soooooo FULL!! hahaha eat too much xD
Took this at outside one of my relative's house. Low quality though.
This year I didn't buy any new clothes. argh feel kinda sien when wearing old clothes go bai nian. But what can do.. I really don't like go buy clothing stuff. haha
New year new target. Just like what my relatives said, you need to pay hard work in order to success in your own future. I knew this since a long time ago, but no really pay hard work on it. Future is yours, no other ppl can control it, manipulate it besides that you yourself. What kind of future you want you have to build the road RIGHT NOW start from this moment. Then the road you've built now will lead you to a bright wonderful place. Ganbatte neh to you who're reading this! =)
hehe lastly still wanna wish you have a blesses Bunny year!!
