Is it the course i get was in my options when i fill the form? YES, it is. Yet it's my fifth option. Why i choose this? It's a stupid long story. Ask me if you really wanna know. LOL
At first i was like cannot accept the truth of getting an unknown course that dunno what's the actual career available for it. Not to mention this university is not in my wanting list. But then what i can do? I can't reject the offer and go find a better university and course to study. Can't afford for the costly fee of private university. :(
And yes, i'm actually very disappointed cause i can't in any better university. Never think of i'll have day like this. Maybe i was too lucky before, everything just as smooth as i wanted it to be. So now, i'm really frustrated cause i can't get the one i want and this is very important matter that will affects my future. I know some of you would say "They accept you so you just go for it. It's better than none." Well, better said than done. Very easy for you to say something like that, you haven't been in my shoes and i know you wouldn't care less. So i'm not going to ask anyone's opinion anymore.
Did some research on my course and my university. Basically it's not a satisfying answer for me. Perhaps I'm asking too much. Too much to think, wanting too much, uncertainty for future, all of these stop you from moving on. So imma follow and continue with what i have now. I believe i can change it, i can do better than others. Although what i get is carbon, but i can make it into diamond also. haha nah, just kidding. :P
This week started to prepare all the documents needed for university and applying for ptptn loan. It's pretty troublesome and i feel so lazy to do it. LOL procrastination and laziness will kill me someday. Today just done my medical check-up, everything is normal. But my coughing still haven't fully recovered. = = Having tonnes of problems in my mind! Urghhh.
Shoo problems shoo troubles! Gotta sleep now.
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